Tuesday, April 18, 2006
the sooner school starts, the better, im getting bored day by day..orientation starts this thurs.. really nervous about it..zak starts school already, i wonder how it goes..haz already 17..just uzma and me, still young and counting..nothing much happen in my life, coz school haven start and im single..to tell you the truth, im enjoying my life being single, haha..2 yrs and counting of being single!
haz birthday party was great, we should have not come earlier man..haha..there's this cousin of yours was a cga, thats what uzma says, and i agree with it..but in the second,third and watever glance, he was just O.K..haha..haz, u are so far different from all your cousins. really. and don't be shy to wear your necklace and your belt whenever we go outing..don't be la..i wanna see ur stylish,haha..don't worry, i won't laugh..nothing wrong with it..if its funny then i will laugh..wat are friends for? hehe..think positive..
the things i regret doing in my whole life- going into a serious relationship with 2 jerks that was basyir and farhan. i really wish that i don't know them and not said ok to go steady with them. urgh,they are really pathetic hypocrites. PATHETIC, mind you..i just waste my feelings which was meant for other BETTER guys..they are liars, super super liars..yeah watever,that was not real love,i just realised but just puppy love..i was not matured enough to think, why god give me brain and i did not use it? i am so stupid..i wish i could turn back time and i wish i can see the future, how my heart breaks because of them..god, forgive me all the sins..watever i do, i just know it was wrong, thats why im single now..YOU know what will happen to me in the future, give me YOUR guidence please..i thank YOU for protecting me..
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going to a not serious relationship with another 2 jerksya, that was mannan and najib..no feelings for them..i wish i would say NO when they ask for stead..NO!! NO!!
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lied to my love ones (c'mon, who never lied)god, forgive me all the lies..now, im trying so hard not to lie to them again..YOU only can forgive me, please..sorry i lied to you, forgive me..that happen 4 yrs ago, now i don't lie to you..ya because of the 4 jerks, i lied to them..no, not again..no lying! if i go another relationship, i want to tell them..so they know..i hope they support..i hope i have courage..i hope i do the right thing by telling them..
actually, there's many to mention, but i lazy..only the important ones..i don't know whats happening to me, just feel the urge to write this..
saranghae ♥
11:30 AM
